I first learned what long distance friendship was when I was just 11 years old, and a lot of people ask me what its like. It’s a daily reminder that the world is bigger than your bubble. It’s a reminder that just because you don’t see someone everyday, or once a week, or even once every 6 months, it doesn’t make them less of a friend. You learn to cherish the time you have together to the fullest. You say “I miss you” more than you ever imagined you’d say in a lifetime in a single phone call. You learn patience. And I’d be lying if I said it was easy. There are times where you aren’t able to talk to each other for weeks. Where you have no clue what’s happening in the others life. But there are also the times where the phone calls and face times go on for hours on end. The times where you cant get off the phone, when you don’t want to say goodbye. The times when something horrible happens and you know they’ll be there for you. The laughs are truer, the friendships are deeper, the distance is just farther. The hellos are better, but the goodbyes are shattering. There are days that you will wish you lived right next door to them, but in the end, having a long distance friendship is an amazing experience. And I wouldn’t have asked for a better friend to go through it with.
I sometimes find myself afraid to show my smile to the world. Covering it up when I laugh, posing for pictures with the most serious of faces. But why? Why am I so scared to smile? To show people how I feel? Why is it that I think my smile is weird and why do I get so embarrassed when people say they can hear and identity my laughter a room away? These all seem like good things, but sometimes I become over aware of my surroundings and all of a sudden all I’m paying attention to is me. Why is it so easy to become so caught up in what others think? Even though I know it doesn’t matter what the world and man thinks of me, I still get all caught up in it. Lately I’ve realized that I haven’t been asking for help. I’ve realized that no mater what I say or do, without the help of God I will always revert to myself. Without God, I will always believe that I am the most important person. I guess now I have to work on trusting him. And, now I have...
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