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forever in our hearts

I’m still trying to find the words to describe all of the emotions running through my mind, but here’s what I came up with  at 4am  through swollen eyes and a heavy heart.  Our lives aren’t hallmark movies. We can’t always predict what’s going to come next, and we aren’t promised (our version of) a happy ending. But our stories are hand crafted by the creator of the universe and they are perfect in his eyes. Even when they leave us broken, lost, and confused in the moment.  Yesterday, after weeks of begging the Lord for a miracle, we didn’t get the answer we wanted. the world lost an amazingly infectious person and the news hit me like a truck. Treven was the most kind, selfless, and compassionate kid I knew. He never met someone he didn’t like, and I don’t think he knew how to greet someone without suffocating them in his classic Treven embrace (little did I know that when he sprung his surprise attack hug on me after frozen it would be the last time I woul...
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God is good

forgiveness is a funny thing, its something we just expect of others, but often have trouble giving ourselves. but forgiveness is such a freeing thing. and it something that i got to really live out a few weeks ago. - the back story - if you've been following me on Instagram for a bit you probably know about my childhood best friend Caleb. i kinda talked about him all the time and i even posted a blog post about our long distance friendship a few years back. but, if you're new around here you're probably sitting here confused as heck, because for the past year or so, we haven't talked at all. - more back story - Caleb and i met the first day of sixth grade, and from day one we were practically inseparable. But, being friends in 6th grade meant that we went through a bunch of petty middle school "drama" over the years. and there were plenty of times (especially when we were 13/14) that i thought we were "over". during these times, my mom would...

nothing ever can separate us

Over the past few months I’ve been going through a lot. A lot has changed and it’s been hard. A few weeks (or maybe months I don’t really remember) ago I was introduced to this verse and it meaning really hit me. I’d read the verse before, and I even had some of it memorized but it was in this rough time that God really showed me what it truly meant.  Romans 8:38-39 says “For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, or height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.”  And as I was reading this verse it hit me. It doesn’t matter what the world or the devil tries to throw at us, God is always here for us. Even In our darkest moments when there seems likes there’s no hope he’s still there. Holding our hand guiding us through. It doesn’t matter what horrible things we’ve done, or what awful things we will do in the future he lo...

JUST A REMINDER:

You are a masterpiece. Created in GODS IMAGE. God made you just the way he wanted you. He has a plan for you and he is going to use you to do amazing things. Don’t let what the media says or what others say about you effect how you feel about yourself. It doesn’t matter who stays with you or who leaves you all alone, God is always there for you and he will never leave you or forsake you. You are precious in his sight. You are HIS child and he loves you more then you ever know. He is always there. And sometimes when it seems like he’s left you, you just have to reach out in trust, and grab ahold of him.

long distance, yes or no?

I first learned what long distance friendship was when I was just 11 years old, and a lot of people ask me what its like. It’s a daily reminder that the world is bigger than your bubble. It’s a reminder that just because you don’t see someone everyday, or once a week, or even once every 6 months, it doesn’t make them less of a friend. You learn to cherish the time you have together to the fullest. You say “I miss you” more than you ever imagined you’d say in a lifetime in a single phone call. You learn patience. And I’d be lying if I said it was easy. There are times where you aren’t able to talk to each other for weeks. Where you have no clue what’s happening in the others life. But there are also the times where the phone calls and face times go on for hours on end. The times where you cant get off the phone, when you don’t want to say goodbye. The times when something horrible happens and you know they’ll be there for you. The laughs are truer, the friendships are deeper, the dista...

always smiling?

I sometimes find myself afraid to show my smile to the world. Covering it up when I laugh, posing for pictures with the most serious of faces. But why? Why am I so scared to smile? To show people how I feel?  Why is it that I think my smile is weird and why do I get so embarrassed when people say they can hear and identity my laughter a room away?  These all seem like good things, but sometimes I become over aware of my surroundings and all of a sudden all I’m paying attention to is me.  Why is it so easy to become so caught up in what others think? Even though I know it doesn’t matter what the world and man thinks of me, I still get all caught up in it.  Lately I’ve realized that I haven’t been asking for help.  I’ve realized that no mater what I say or do, without the help of God I will always revert to myself. Without God, I will always believe that I am the most important person.  I guess now I have to work on trusting him. And, now I have...

in Gods eyes

   We are a generation controlled by what the internet says we should look and feel like. In Gods eyes each of us is just the way we were meant to be. Each of us is wanted and loved.  No one is better then anyone else. We are fearfully and wonderfully made.  Each of us is priceless.     Every day girls are told that they need to eat less, work out more, wear this and read that. And so very often, I'm swept into those lies.  So often I am believing what the public thinks of me instead of what my Heavenly Father thinks of me. I am his creation created for good. All that I need to remember is that I am beautiful to my creator and that's all that matters.