Perfectingmyinnereeyore

   We are a generation controlled by what the internet says we should look and feel like. In Gods eyes each of us is just the way we were meant to be. Each of us is wanted and loved.  No one is better then anyone else. We are fearfully and wonderfully made.  Each of us is priceless.     Every day girls are told that they need to eat less, work out more, wear this and read that. And so very often, I'm swept into those lies.  So often I am believing what the public thinks of me instead of what my Heavenly Father thinks of me. I am his creation created for good. All that I need to remember is that I am beautiful to my creator and that's all that matters.

    I started this blog so I could have a place to journal my journey conquering depression. But I haven’t really done that.. written down my journey that is.   I guess I’ve just been spitting out the random things that pop into my head on a day to day (ok so not that often but you get the idea) basis. It’s been just thrown together and disjointed and I don’t know if that’s gonna change cause to be honest thats how my brain works.      But I’m about to move. And I know that it’s gonna be hard. It was last time I moved and this time I’m leaving more and going farther. I don’t know how often I’m gonna be on here, it might be one a week or month, or three times a day. It just depends. I plan to write about my struggles and heartbreaks, my joys and victory’s. And don’t worry, I’ll still be spitting out randomness. That’s kinda in my DNA.. 

   Texas is the only place I've ever lived. When my family moved to Dallas, it was hard. I was 5 hours away from my childhood home and all my childhood friends. But moving to Tennessee feels like moving across the world. I'm having to pick up everything and move to a completely new place with new people so very far from everything I've ever known. And to make it better, moving means saying goodbye. And I hate goodbyes.    I become close to people very quick. Its just who I am. And becoming close to people quickly means I've had lots of time to get to know each other which means saying goodbyes kinda sucks..    In this day and age all we have to do is shoot out a text or post a picture on Instagram and you are instantly connected to pretty much any and everyone in the world. So why is saying goodbye so hard? Why do I feel sick to my stomach seeing people for the last time?     For me, I'm afraid I'm gonna lose people. That people who i love and care abo

    We are often tempted to portray a "edited" version of ourselves on social media. Even when we post "reality" pictures on our Instagram or Facebook we still tend to edit it. Reading and re-reading what we say.      Social media makes it easy to portray a perfect life. It is so easy to post something, leaving out the hard stuff. It also makes it easy to become jealous because it seems like everyone else's life is so perfect and no one else has the same problems as you.     The idea of connecting over social media isn't new, it's the concept of  friendship that has changed. Friends used to be the people you saw every week at church or at school but more and more often, friends are becoming the people we talk to over that internet or that one kid that starts liking your pictures. Friends are now becoming people we have never meet.      Social media is taking over our lives and we aren't stoping it. We aren't worried about it. We ar