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i never thought it would happen here.

They were always so far away.
   So far in fact that while devastating and scary they never affected me. 
But then, it happened. 
One hit a little to close to home.

   After years of hearing on the news about a shooting over in that country or that state way over there it was here. My home the city close to where I lived. It was terrifying. 
I truly wonder how many people are becoming numb to the violence around us. How many people are like "oh it's happening again..."
When I was younger, this was not the world I imagined growing up in. 

    Even though my fairy tale world was forever crushed around age 9 but I have to keep asking myself why? 
What good is coming from this? 
I've found myself digging deeper into Gods word because we never know what's gonna happen next. 
God has a plan for it all. 
But even knowing that sometimes does nothing. 
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